When women writes

I had been writing for quite sometime now but I never really produced something that is really worth reading for.  I realized that I am emotionally driven when writing.  I tend to write when I am emotionally disturbed.  I can give perfect picture of how I think through words.  But again, this only happens when emotional hype strikes.

When does it usually strike?  Emotions.  Unpredictable.  There can be many reasons behind.

1)     Monthly cycle – There is a point in a woman’s monthly cycle that makes us emotional (usually on or before the menstrual period.  Women are soft at this stage.  We easily cry at petty things.  Some tend to be more hot tempered.  Emotions.  It may be both aggressive or regressive.

2)     Something happened that day – If she is the type of woman who takes hours before she speaks about what happened (or doesn’t talk about it at all), one of her outlets is writing.  She will pour out all the emotions and will reread whatever she wrote and would feel better after that.

Yes, I said many.  Others are yet to be explained how.

Lovely magazine covers

Rosas ng Digma

Sumibol sa isang panahong marahas

Bawat pagsubok ay iyong hinarap

At hangga’t laya’y di pa nakakamtan

Buhay mo’y laging laan

Namumukadkad at puno ng sigla

Tulad mo’y rosas sa hardin ng digma

At di maiwasang sa’yo ay humanga

Ang tulad kong mandirigma

(Refrain)

Ako’y nangangarap na ika’y makasama

Taglay ang pangakong iingatan kita

Ang ganda mong nahubog sa piling ng masa

Hinding hindi kukupas, di malalanta

Ang kulay mong angkin, sintingkad ng dugo

Nagbibigay-buhay sa bawat puso

Tinik mo’y sagisag ng tapang at giting

Sa langara’y kislap ng bituin

(Repeat refrain twice)

Gaya ng pag-ibig na alay ko sinta

I have included this song in my blog today to mark the death of Ka Roger.  A name I have always heard but never really knew in person.  I may not fully under understand why he went to fight (for what whatever he was fighting for).  I just want to honor him for everything he did, he was.

I am a writer

14 yrs ago (07-Oct-1997) I won 1^st price for Editorial Writing Contest.  It was such a fulfilling experience.  I need to write.  It expresses the cheese out of me.  Otherwise, I will be vague.  Vague in what I say because of those thoughts that are not put into words.  But for the past years, my passion in writing has diminished specially when I worked in a callcenter.  I just had to talk and key in important details in a system.  That was 3 years of talking.  I am living in a country where English is a slight challenge that I need to bend what I know so our ideas will meet.  3 years.  I can state many reasons why I stopped writing.  But I know there are more reasons to write.  I tried to write again through blog.  There is effort is producing topic, effort in producing words, effort in making it interesting, effort in the composition when all I need to do is write.  Rust.  Writing is writing.  It sounds easy to do but if you do not practice this passion, it will feel awkward to do the next time you try it.  Struggle.  As I write, I am also reading books.  This is to refresh me of the ways people write.  To refresh me with words.  To give me patience in focusing on one thing and squeeze ideas about it rather than agreeing to the only idea presented by the book.  I play word games.  I won and had been defeated many times.  Challenge.  Lesson learned.  Do not stop reading.  Do not stop writing.  Do not stop learning.